"Reality of Life"

Hanging by a Moment (lifehouse)

2011-06-23T13:06:00.000+08:00

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you

45th monthsarry message..=)

2010-12-22T09:16:00.001+08:00

I am truly blessed that God has given me this sweet morning to write you something for our 45th monthssary together, together as a couple.Limited man ang ways to express lahat ng love na gusto kong mafeel mo for this day,I know you are just a prayer away from me But because I asked,I know it will be given to me.I pray by now,as you start reading this letter, that you will be blessed to feel my embraces and kisses.I cant be w/u 2day to celebrate but my love will surely reach you.who could tell me na after once in a month we would be celebrating this day being one in heart. Hahaha, medyo nakakatawa din kung irereminsce ko pa yung times naten when we’re just starting building the friendship. It was bitter-sweet, tearful-happy kinda times. hahaha! Never perfect, never completely blissful..but God truly had a purpose sa lahat ng nangyari and I just thank Him big time dahil He let me wait and reap the love na tinanim ko noon for absolutely, a sweet fruit of love. Nyikes ang dami ko din kakulitan and demands na I know nakapagpasakit ulo and nakapagpatampo at galit sayo sakin. And please understand na possible na di ko maiiwasan maging weak and magpadala sa mga emotions ko in the future,but with god’s help,I will do what He says,so we could walk hand in hand until the end of the race nang hindi ako makapag cause ng too much pain or worries sayo.I am just also asking na maging strong ka din for me on those times and dont give up on me easily.. I wont ask for super big things.As we know we have so many discrepancies, so many hesitations, questions and doubt not only for our relationship, but as well as within our self.. but no matter what it takes, for this period of time, i learned to love u so deep.. learned to forgive you when u crashed my heart.. learned to accept what you’d done.. learned to dream about future with you.. learned to sacrifice my pride, learned to smile when I’m sad, to sleep w/ sadness in my heart and hope that tomorrow everything’s will be alright.. to pray that you’ll not gonna say goodbye.. to hope that whatever argument were having, you’re still there, holding on.. to wish the impossible thing in life.. i learned to feel the true love.. but all of those, i never learned how to love you less in every waking day of my life.. thank you so much ney for letting me feel those kinds..I want you to know that I really appreciate all the time and effort na binibigay mo sakin and for our relationship..sa mga words na sineshare mo saken. Sa good intentions na nasa heart mo..sa mga prayers mo… sa mga pag alala mo.Happy Monthsary Ney and wish us both a happy life and strong relationship together.. and more months and years to come with fulfillment and harmony together..thank u for staying here w/me.thank u for d respect and kindness.thank u for being my all time happiness i love you so much baby and will love you more in every waking day of my life..I really thank God for letting me love you and letting me be loved by you. I love You.. mwuuahh!

así que gracias por venir a mi vida (thank you for coming into my life)

2010-10-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

I still remember the day we first met.. The first time I laid eyes on you, I knew that you would be someone that would make me smile again. The one I was meant to be with forever..You had such a warm, soft look on your face that I knew there was comfort and friendship in your heart. We started out as friends and you were the rock I needed in my life. I soon began to realize that what I was feeling for you was more than a friendship... something so overwhelming and wonderful that I couldn't even believe it. You opened my heart to new and wonderful things! You showed me what love really is and showed me that I was worth loving..
You gave me the best love i have ever known...You touched my heart in a way that i thought was impossible..You have given me hope, fulfilled dreams, and given me a reason to go on.. You have helped me become a better person, a better guRL of u, and a better friend.. You have completed me in more ways than you could ever imagine! The love you have given to me is sometimes so hard to believe that I still have to pinch myself to make sure it's really in my life! ^_^ I love you because you bring the best out of me.Your damn terrific sense of humor and intelligence.. =D
Each and everyday is a bonus for me..I appreciate every single minute with you.Whether it be for one moment,one day or a million moments..:) u know dat! coz being with you makes me feel new and bright..(a happy atmosphere of love) hahah :)) I feel lucky and alive of corz!You fill me with youth and masses and masses of TLC.. =) wanna let u knoe too dat I treasure every moment with you..So,I thank you for coming into my life this way..Amazingly you express your love to me all day..what a joy, what a privilege, I feel light..I feel great just being with you!! I love the way you make me happy and the ways you show your care. I love the way you say, 'I Love You,' .awww!*sigh
As we reach three years and seven months (today)together, I see that I do want to spend my lifetime with you..to grow old together to the end of our time! You're the only boyfriend who gives my heart some excitement and thrills..When I'm with you I feel like I'm out of control! yay! =D You are a blessing that my entire being is very thankful for.I feel that we were made to love, listen, understand, and work through all times in our lives together, a truly rare gift..kakaiba!! =) and You taught me how to handle life seriously,you taught me how to solve my problems and to face it without any fear... coz when I'm with you, I feel no fear, not even a single one..You’ve taught me lessons that would have otherwise gone un-learned and for that it seems as if words aren’t enough. I just wanted to express my gratitude in whatever weird small way..=) LOL You never give up on me, and that's what keeps me going. You are simply irresistible.Thank you specially for your encouragement!! Luv it! Your encouragement for me to become a better person.. (woohh!) Whatever I went through,ITS ALL WORTH IT COZ IT LEADS ME TO YOU!..(damn!) ^_^ a big big big THANK YOU!! =) Thank you for believing in me and for giving me the strength.Thank you for your warm embrace,comforting words,sweet caress,words are simple,ways are real,attention you give,of corz for coming into my life, for just being yourself, for just being there for me, for not promising anything BUT doing everything..Thank you, thank you sooOOo much! Love..love.. =))

This letter is to let you know that I really appreciate you.. =) And to let you know that I love you too.. But most of all it’s just my way of saying THANK YOU!!I love you and that's what I want you to bear in your mind, and it's for keeps!!From this moment on, we have each other and all the time to be in each other's arms.. ryt?? =)) When I say I love you it is truly meant..

P.S. hahah::: I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today. With all my heart I am forever yours!!
Happy monthsarry.. =)) mmmwuuahhh!! *huggss and kisses..

- I missed YOU ='(

2010-10-17T01:26:00.002+08:00

It’s been a cold and hard months passed by,
Things are so different and I don’t understand.
We had a love that could last us forever,
I thought that we would part from each other, never.

But things can change and the feelings can too,
So I just hope that one day you become unglued.
I lie here all night just whispering your name,
Thinking you might hear me, and fix all this pain.

When you love someone you have to let them go
It’s going to be pain, it’s going to hurt, I know
But you just have to smile and give them the benefit of the doubt
Because one night they will miss you and realize that he can’t live without

I’ve loved you since I met you, I always have and always will.
So when you tell me how you feel, to you, my heart, I will spill.
It’s bundled up now and it’s causing me grief.
But what’s a girl supposed to do, just sit there and believe?

It was love at first sight,and my feelings for you grew..
I knew that if I was with you, to nobody else could I be so true.
You made my heart flutter, you made my world spin,
The way you held me and touched my skin.

There’s not a soul like yours, not a person as unique..
You’re adorable, you’re amazing, it makes my knees weak.
So as I lie here in pain and wonder what I did so wrong,
I think to myself that I can do this, I can be strong!

But guys don’t understand, it’s not as easy as it seems,
Because when I go to sleep at night, it’s you whose in my dreams.
You made my life complete, turned my world upside down,
With you in my life, my face never has a frown.

Girls emotions are strong, they don’t draw a line,
And when you walked into my life, you wouldn’t believe how you shined..
My heart was fluttered and my emotions went insane,
I knew that you were the guy who would never cause me pain.

I fell in love with you, your voice, your touch,your kiss
I knew from the beginning that I would love you so much.
Your smile brightened my day and your hugs were all that I felt,
With the love that we had for each other, my heart started to melt..

Your sweet kisses and love hugs made my day complete,
I loved you even more then before the previous heart beat.
You make my world shine and it glows when I’m down..
Just because there’s a person in my life like you, that I have found..

But now that we’ve parted and gone our own ways for a while,
Who do I turn to on all of my bad days?? =(
My life was complete, it was the best thing ever,
I knew that I’d fallen in love and that it’d last forever.

So the question remains, where did I go so wrong?
I could sit here all night, and just play along..
But I don’t want to leave you, I want to stay with you now,
All that I want is to prove to you somehow..

"Painful Memories"

2010-10-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

Feel the blowing leaves and reeds
Lying on our backs in that field
Felt like we were the only humans
Banished in the middle of no where

Staring at the thousands of stars
Feeling the crisp night prickle my spine
Feeling your heart beat so close to mine
And repeatedly saying the same three words

"I love you" is what you told me
Before we promised we would be together
Forever and ever, you have my heart
And I could feel your warm embrace

And now I’m here, all alone
Wondering what I’ve done so wrong
Watching my whole life before my eyes
And feeling the cruel world crash down on me

Can’t you see what pain you’ve caused?
Can’t you see I’m dying…

"All about ME"

2010-10-16T19:53:00.000+08:00

Digeeana Rutao.(D-G-ANA RU-TAW).I am me. My birthday is September 18,1988.I was born in SanFernando City of Pampanga..I live with my family (mom and dad).I have three siblings Deejay, Nicolai and Stephen Jan..
To start this,no wonder people pre-judge my capabilities because they don't know me better.It's hard to run the race of life so fast that time wasted.The struggles I faced.The true wonders I dreamed..It all boils down to growth... and that growth made me a better person today!

about myself:
ahm... sabi nila tahimik daw ako na madaldal,hehehehe(gulo noh?)ewan ko nga ba bket.simple lang akong tao na may my extra ordinary na pangarap na maging isang.. hmhmhmhmhm kung anu man yun,ako na ang nakakaalam haha.... yun lang.
makulet,kakatawa,kalog,smiling face sabi nga nila. hehehe matakaw,mapangasar,iyakin hahahha.. madaling makisama, maunawain,mpagbigay =)at masasabing a shoulder to lean on! (taray!)Most of the times kasi I’m the most strong I’m the rock the spot you get support from! LOL And when somebody low,they know that you can hold on me.Everybody are welcome! That's all for now.. will update this soon.. =)

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2009-11-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

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We all know that saving money is one of those tasks that's so much easier said than done.How much money will you save, where will you put it, and how can you make sure it stays there? Here's how to set realistic goals.

_Make a Budget_
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Before you leave on your house make sure to unplug everything that doesn't need to stay plugged in.Even were not using an appliance as long as it is plugged in,there is still usage of electricity that can add up into your bills.

_Stop Using Credit Cards_
Pay for everything with cash.Don't even use checks.Credit cards are not evil.it's all about your self control.If you use them responsibly,you can benefit from them.But the reason here is most of the credit card companies make money,however, is because people end up spending money that they don't have.

_Open a Bank Account_
It’s a lot easier to keep track of your savings if you have them separate from your spending money. You can also usually get better interest on savings accounts than on checking accounts.

_Pay Yourself First_
Savings should be your priority, so don’t just say that you’ll save whatever is left over at the end of the month. Deposit savings into an account (or your piggy-bank) as soon as you get paid.

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2009-11-12T17:26:00.000+08:00

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2009-11-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

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Helping People to Succeed through Home Business

2009-11-10T18:42:00.000+08:00

Hi my beloved readers!Another beautiful day again and I want to share something that I am fully interested to share to you.(= My topic for today is all about helping people to succeed through home internet business.There is a certain feeling I feel inside when I placed my focus on reaching out and helping others,even though it is through blog.
When I'm encountering many bumps and curves on the road of my life I always think first and ask myself "is this the thing that God would want me to do?" I know in myself there a lot of people like me too asking this to their self.This is the way I live my life.I will do my very best I can be.And I know my sincere conquest to give service to others will bring good luck in my life.(=
We all know that we need to make a living and support our families especially this time of financial crisis.This is not the easiest thing to do.Most of us get up and go to work everyday like robots and come home late never having enough time to spend with family.=( Some of us love their jobs but don't make enough money.Others make enough money but hate their jobs.In this time of our living,we don't have to be 'choosy'.(=
As we go on,the best thing about starting a home business is that it gives us the precious time that we all so desperately need for our family.Sometimes most are up and gone before there kids are.Another simple thing most can't do.=(
These are just a few simple things that most people almost people never get to do.With your own home business you can do these things.You don't have any experience with a home business and that's OK! The Call Com Inc.is a very good company that pride themselves in training people that are totally new to the internet.One thing to remember,it doesn't take a college graduate to be successful.All it takes is to have someone will show you the ropes!And that is the 4 steps to Success Action Plan,the first ever International professional training program.This is the company (Call Com Inc.) that will hold your hand and lead you in the right direction.So,don't be afraid to join us in our company and be a member!The right home based business opportunity has the earning potential to replace your full time income very quickly!
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Email;digeeana22@gmail.com

START A NEW VENTURE!

2009-11-09T18:47:00.000+08:00

Some say that starting a home based business is full of terrible experience.Anyone can start a home based business opportunity. Upon starting you have to do a lot of adjustments. Giving and working long hours,facing the computer almost the time,and ready your self for a full responsibility.It is important to have always a presence of mind,because one thing that you need to be aware of is that there are many scams online.(= In my own experience, having a online shop or business is easy to work with if you have the presence of mind. You have to think about your daily plans.

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Motivate yourself.You have to discipline yourself and be able to work alone without any supervision. The important thing here is you must have a lot of patience. You have to deal with situations positively and be ready in handling negative situations patiently.Just try to balance things and one thing for sure everything will turn out right.Patience is the most important factor and give the very of best of what you can do!

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2009-11-06T20:28:00.000+08:00

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